The words i would say

Well....Things are alot better now. Thank You everyone for allowing me my nervous breakdown a couple weeks ago. I am much better now. Things are still tight and there is no money still but i have a better hold on myself and the whole situation. I love my life and my family and friends. I have had plenty of time to play with all of them over the holidays and its helped me cope and deal with the idea that i am still me...just without a job and money, but lets face it...there really wasnt alot of money around when i did have a job!

The lord spoke to me through a song this morning.

Praying is something i do everyday, all day long. And then i watch and listen for his answers. Sometimes they are loud and come with force and then others its simply a word blown into my head by the wind. This morning it was a song i have heard a million times on klove. I have heard this song many times but as i sat at the bank this am in the drivethru i heard it like i never have before. I had turned the music down so i could communicate with the teller and my 4 yr old ava had a fit b/c she wanted to hear the music. I told her that we wouldnt be long and that the music would only interfere with what i was doing. She thought about that for a few seconds and then very quietly said no mommy, it wont interfere, we need to listen to the words in that song. I stared in the rearview at her as i turned it back up...the song had changed during our short conversation and it was now the sidewalk prophets song that is very appropriately titled...The words i would say...like i said i have heard it many times but this time it was like someone had removed cotton balls from my ear and i heard it clearly for the first time....

Here are the lyrics that caught me:
Be strong in the lord and never give up hope
you're going to do great things i already know
Gods got his hands on you
so dont live life in fear
forgive and forget
but dont forget why your here
take your time and pray
thank god for each day, His love will find a way
these are the words i would say

wow...out of the mouths of babes!!! Thank God for my children...who point me in the right direction everyday. ava has always been my little life preserver from the lord. hard to make since of it sometimes but that child keeps me grounded where i need to be!

So...Things are better...not fixed but better!